I don’t really have long-term career goals. I’m happy working as a casual academic right now, and it would suit my lifestyle when I have young kids. After I’ve completed my PhD I might try and do some postdoc research, and I’d like to publish my work. I’m just going to see how it all unfolds.
I know that feeling! I try to avoid getting sucked down that rabbit hole by setting daily goals. In fact I have stopped thinking about work in terms of ‘the big picture’ entirely, because it just induces anxiety! I realised I was feeling a sense of anxiety that was not at all proportionate to the obstacle I was facing (the thing causing the anxiety). It was taking up so much of my energy, I had to let it go. So now I think of life in terms of hourly or daily increments and I focus only on what I can achieve in the present. I’ll set a word quota for the day and as soon as I’ve achieved it I’ll close my laptop. This also allows me some space for getting carried away with interesting articles here and there, because as long as I’ve achieved my daily goal, it’s all good.
My wedding dress arrived today!
I love academia. I spent a bit over a year in a conventional workplace after getting my bachelor’s degree, and although I enjoyed it, I didn’t really find it stimulating enough. A shot at a great scholarship came up during my Honours year and I went for it. The two years since being awarded that scholarship have been the best of my life. I believe my ‘true calling’ is motherhood.